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IF YOU ARE NOT A RESPONSIBLE ADULT, TURN BACK NOW. This page, is intended primarily to inform, and to prevent tragedy. Indeed, it exists to *protect* those yearning seekers and "lost children" out there, who might otherwise ruin their lives, and/or the lives of others.
This page, is *not* intended to "recruit" people into a particular lifestyle, nor is it intended to make that lifestyle look especially "glamourous," nor is it intended to mislead anyone... (In fact, I'm hoping that the reader of this page's content, will be struck by how *un*glamourous, certain aspects of *my* life, are... You *will* see me as I am, here.
I am *determined* to be honest, about what *my* individual experience of all this, is *like.* That way, those of you who are feeling sick, scared, and alone-- or those of you who are drunk on false dreams of "power over"-- will perhaps feel a little *better,* having gotten a *balanced perspective.* Yes, THERE IS LIFE AFTER "vampiric manifestation"... And, LIFE WITHOUT IT, too.)
I am not currently an M.D., merely a self-taught student, in many disciplines. More importantly, many of *you,* whether IDing as "night children" or not, also have wisdom to share... This page, is an attempt, to encourage such sharing. Hopefully, personal growth will occur, into the bargain.
Do I claim to be some sort of "vampire god"? Hardly.
Indeed, I often feel *extreme* trepidation, at the idea of helping *anyone* through these channels-- especially because I've been "burned" so many times, already, by narcissistic paranoids and bigots, who keep expecting, apparently, that I should conform to *their* twisted fantasies, of what a "vampire" is.
I care little, whether you believe that I exist, or that I am helpful... But if you do not understand, respect, or trust my words, then you do not belong here.
If this applies to you, please spare us all the tiresome game of e-mailing me, or MESS-ageboarding me, to inform me of same, and *just go.*
Those of you, who are too immature to avoid endangering me, be advised, I *will* take appropriate legal action, from this point on. I kept my silence for so long, to *protect* you-- But rest assured, that if *you* have anything else nasty to say about *me,* you can talk to my lawyer. Understood? ::sweet smile:: Gee, thanks so much. I'd hate to have to tell your mommy and daddy, to *spank* you...
Here's a handy exit, to what you probably think of as "the real world." Have fun, and don't take any wooden nickels-- OOPS, too late...www.yahoo.com
But for those of you, who seek a shade of information, not available in the other "vampire support" sites/pages out there-- perhaps because you are "outcast" for trivial pseudoreasons-- then *welcome.* (And, those of you who so gravely wronged me, are welcome to come here, too... as long as you are sufficiently openminded. You may e-mail your apologies to me, *privately.* That will be enough to satisfy me. Unlike *some* people, I am *not* excessively paranoid or petty...) I really am *tired* of all these fools, who think playing "War of the Kindred," is *fun*... I want to *build* bridges, not burn them. It's all I *ever* wanted.)
I won't promise warm friendship, with *all* seekers... But I *do* try to help, in my way. I hope you shall feel comfortable here. (Trust me, I know what it's like, to spend your entire lifetime so far to date, trying to "be good," obeying and respecting the law, assisting others-- *everyone,* not "just vamps"-- only to be declared "evil" on someone else's technicality... which brings us to...)
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"I was thinking...
got the feeling...
the gift you gave,
is gonna last forever..."
-- INXS, "The Gift," *Full Moon, Dirty Hearts*
::bow:: Hallo, there, loves, how are you? It's all right, you don't have to say "fine"-- Obviously, all is not well with you at the moment, or you *wouldn't be here.*
But I'll tell you, I'm *beyond fine.* After a futile effort to be a martyr-by-inches because of guilt issues from past lives, I've finally come to understand a couple of things-- The One (as I prefer to call "God" or whatever) doesn't want me to *die* for It... The One wants me to *live* for It... Oh, and I've been seeing the greater purpose, in my having been born with some unique gender issues, also-- Suffice to say, it's got to do with "cramming for a karmic exam"...
(Yes, I *do* identify as "Christian," but I expect that some of you, would be surprised, at my particular vision/version of Christ... However, I respect *other* visions/versions, too. And, I see *no* contradiction, in honoring both Christ, *and* all the other things I honor-- For, was this not *His* way...? *Respect* for others, even when they are "different"? Receptiveness, to whatever reality *truly is,* or may be?
Remember, Christ *did not* waste time arguing with, or rebuking, so-called "devil-worshippers," or the like... His strongest criticisms, went to the *religious establishment,* of His day. And, *they* accused *Him* of being "Satanic"...
Something to think about, children.)
I hardly feel that I owe *strangers* all the graphic details of said issues, so if you *really* want to know, you'll have to *at least* e-mail me... preferably with some friendly support and helpful information of your *own,* that this place may continue to grow and prosper... If you pass muster as an ally, you'll get more details than you could ever imagine right now, I *promise.*
All you need to know, at *this* level, is that I *prefer* male nouns and pronouns, in reference to me--Anyone who does not respect this aspect of me, is a *fool,* to expect that I will help them, on a personal level. I am *not* insane-- merely intersexed. If you have a "problem" with this, then *again,* you don't belong here. (See above.)
If, on the other hand, you at least know enough, to know how ignorant you are of gender issues, then please see the "intersexuality" category in Yahoo!, or the links in my "Links" section. Thank you. (By the way, if *you* too, have unique issues of personal identity, you are *especially* welcome, here. Perhaps we may enlighten each other.)
No, I'm *not* an actual official, legal "doctor," just yet-- My moniker is inspired by a shamanic term.
It is said, you see, that there are "sun doctors"... And *then,* there are "moon doctors."
2 guesses what *my* path is, and the first doesn't count.
And yes, I am a "vampire." I was *born* one, which makes me a congenital vampire with-- as is often the case-- "adolescent manifestation."
No, I don't prowl around every night, looking for human blood. Quite frankly, most of it nowadays, is of poor quality... I've had *offers,* but not much I choose to follow up on. As I've said before, as "chaste" as it may sound: I'm waiting for the *right* bite. And, I feed on energies ethically obtained, freely given. I *refuse* to feed on anyone who doesn't know *exactly* what they're getting into.
::smile:: All right, that will have to be enough, to satisfy you, for now... If you really want to know more, go to the section "My Lurid Story (or, My Wimpy, Wimpy Ways)"...
::saluting:: Speaking of which, *do* feast your eyes on the MENU...
Which is *this* way, follow me please-- That is, if you *belong* here...
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